Sunday, February 25, 2007
8:34 AM
AAAHHHHHHHH!!!
OBS tomorrow!!! )=
iamgoingtodie. and it is not helping that i am carrying a HUGE bag that is going to make me look like i am travelling for 10days!! ): bah. should i carry the smaller one?? but i dont think its enough... sigh.
i like to worry so i am seriously worrying..
: do i have enough?
:do i have too much?
:is that all? did i forget anything?
:is my packing convenient to take out stuff?
:am i going to DIE?
bleagh.
"be anxious for nothing, but in everything, by prayer and petition..."
help God help!!
okayyy. well i think i will take the small backpack! HAHAH.
yesterday was fun! went early to meet twin tower to chat.. we didnt really talk that much.. just a little. we sorta ended up reading fairy tales and dumb optical illusions in the library! haha. but still it felt nice!
then at cell we were doing the qt thing again. i must be more diligent.. i think our cell is sort of regressing to the old cell stage. we need to BOND more =) cant go for archery next wk.. although not much point since practically no one is going!
service was sort of different. not sure how.. felt pretty bad cos i was chatting through alot of the sermon): sigh. i must pay more attention.. missed sarah soh and her asthma attacks! ahaha. love you dear<3!
dinner was pretty uneventful except for the Qinwei song.. esther's supposed to put the video on youtube! hahaha.
well. i shall go and pack now. small bag i think. how did lydia stuff all her things into a BADMINTON BAG?? oh well technically im not too sure exactly how big a badminton bag is. but still. see you when im back from obs! not tooo BLACK i hope..
wish me luck! actually, pray for me!
runningsofast,youdontturnback.ifyou'donlyslowdow you'dseemewaitingforyou.wishingyou'dstoptoo.
watching and waiting.
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
7:18 AM
i'm getting mad at people because they dont bother to try to become closer to God..and i'm struggling so much and they're just enjoying themselves, not caring about it at all. what would you call it? jealous?selfish?unreasonable?haughty? im sorry. i should be praying for them, not getting so frustrated that i push them into
DANGERZONE..
friday went shopping with the nonyas! sam wasnt there as usual! eug and charis and terry came after sasha and i, and left before sasha and i. so it was basically sasha and i. sigh. wasnt very satisfactory shopping though. i still want heels. i saw a NICE pair yesterday, but they only had BRIHGT GOLD in my size. and i dont think it goes with much. anyway, short people, heels dont make that much difference okay! and its just the FACT that they're heels. not that i want to be any taller. I found a perfect pair for sasha. what.6,8 inch platforms?? ahaha.
i have been eating alot. had a sort of reunion dinner on sat.. i baked! haha im not such a loser who blows up the kitchen! im the one who people say "you should sell your stuff" to! HAHA yay me.
went for a fabulous buffet yesterday at the miramar hotel to treat this friend of my parents for her 83rd birthday! and she's still so fit! haha i ate super super ALOT. i need a spectacular exercise regime to make me prepared for obs! or else im just gonna COLLAPSE and DIE.. i hope i'll survive..everyone says its okay but then they're all like ATHLETIC people, not UNFIT like me!! ): well..God will see me through.
i need to buy stuff for obs.. i dont know what type of bag to carry.. anybody know?? help those who came back alr! sms me or sth! like so i wont be STUCK!! yay haha thank you!!
pfftt..i shall go now! and study for lit and ss although i have no idea how.. bah. i want the LOOOONGGG end-year holidays again!! sigh. well..off now! (:
should i? should i not? should i? well..its not a matter of life and death is it?
Thursday, February 15, 2007
2:36 PM
i know i cant survive without God-and i'm not going to try.
who would comfort me? who would love me? who would reassure me? who would encourage me? it always God. maybe through other people, but just trace it back-to God.
this week was pretty tiring. its amazing that i didnt have any tests.. i'm so thankful for that. and that i've made it to this point. and that there's a recharge, the 4-5 day break. i need to spend more time with God..after all He's done for me, is this all i can do in return?? 30+ min a day-not even regularly..
early this week i had a number of chinese periods.. so i went to the library. And i took the school bible and sat in one corner and just reflected. prayed and read. i couldnt worship of course, so i spent some time doing it those nights. it got me through the day honestly. i felt God so strongly and His love for everyone around me in school and i just couldn't stop praising His name.
i even almost ended up late for class. lucky it was break so i arrived just as the teacher did.
vday was so fun(: i got so many presents compared to last year! and more flowers! yeah as dan said-its so nice to know that there are so many people who care about you enough to give you something on valentine's day. be it katrina's melting jelly or lydia's flower, or sasha's card.. it doesnt matter because they were all given in love and it really is the thought that counts, isn't it?
i think i didnt screw up the skit as badly as i thought i would! i could be heard! yay i basically blocked out the audience. i asked God to help me feel as though we were rehearsing, and He did. it felt normal. alhtough i was pretty nervous. heh..
curtain duty tmr! if i dont like you, the curtain closes! wahahahah.. (=
cant wait to go SHOPPING! i seriously need retail therapy.. shops..shops..clothes.. haha
thank you so much dan for staying back with me and talking to me.. i thank God so much for you. i love you so much darling<3. it's okay. i'll be praying for you always. You are indeed beautiful inside-out. (=
twin tower!! i miss you!<3 go out okay?? and i believe you have a long overdue letter addressed to me??? (= haha.
i enjoy church now. church pple make me go HIGH and feel so happy.. thanks all of you who made me laugh till my jaws hurt last week! i am so blessed to have you guys!
take care okay, everyone? God is watching out for you!
"FEAR NOT FOR I AM WITH YOU," SAYS THE LORD.
"I NEVER SAID A SPARROW WOULD NOT FALL, BUT I DID PROMISE THAT YOU WOULD NEVER FALL WITHOUT THE FATHER."
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
3:15 PM
not even at home yet.
waiting for my uncle to drive me home.
went all the way home to find out i had to go half the way back. isn't that dumb?
that day i told someone-i think it was sam-i love wednesdays cos they mean that i've made it through half the week and i can survive the rest of it.
i didn't realise how true that actually was.
i shall still be alive at the end of the week.
Monday, February 05, 2007
2:50 PM
WAH..last week was SOOOO tiring. okay so i only had 4 tests, but im not used to working!! HAHA. i miss slacking..
haha i saw joey in sch last monday and today! badminton comp-our schls hosting it.. haha she was so blur last week and i had t drag natyeo and jy all around the 2nd floor of the hall to yell at her..in the end she saw me and then i realised i had nothing to say but "hi" and stuff about how the match was and "see you on sat!". (:
sam says we cant have ice-skating cca!! ): i wanted to learn!! but she says tt she can still teach me on fridays after i finish Guides(: YAY!
french last week was quite okay. thurs jy and i almost reached there at break!! cos she had higher chinese thing and i was waiting for her(: i'm SO nice! haha. then at one point the teacher was like "did you all watch yesterdays match?" and then we all said yes, except like jy and one of the cedar girls..cant rmb who. and all the guys started talking ALOT ALOT about football..HAHA. and ais and i were talking about it too! (: until the madame lee was like "enough!!"
i havent failed anything yet!! i'm so HAPPY! i was SO sure i failed amath! but cos of the 4 free marks i passed!! by 1 mark..(: yay typos! :D
AND I PASSED TOPO!! finally! i will get my bronze soon!! SOON!
i was so grateful when sat finally came! i woke up really late(: i went to meet eunice and joey half an hour before cell.. and this silly eunice came early cos she thought cell started at 3! (: HAHA. we were sitting in hawker talking nonsense and shooting the small milk biscuit thing at each other.(it has some chinese or chinese brand name:D) cell was fun lah. we played the 2truths-1lie thing that i just played w my peer charges last week! (OHNO i havent passed them their letters!!) apparently everybody knows my height so most pple got it right. except CARMEN and i dont know who else(:
mine were:
i hav 5 pairs of sch socks
i am 1.76m tall
i used to go to The British School
very obvious meh?(:
at service i got hit in the eye by a flying m&m like thing.. and i made the huge mistake of letting sarah write on me cos i thought i told her nothing BAD.. haha she wrote "I LIKE BOYS" hugely, across my left arm in pink zig marker!! ): and i was like OH MY GOLLY and i found this sock (??) in my bag which i used to frantically scrub at it until it wasnt obvious! (: HAHA. so scary lah this woman. it doesnt sound that bad perhaps but if you were me, it WAS.
i was slacking sunday mostly except for a little studying of bio...i just couldn't study. watched part of the match(: haha dont know why but been very interested in singapore's matches nowadays. (and its NOT eye candy okay!!) shall go and become a pro footballer. HAHA right. i cant even KICK the ball. okay i can but not properly. not in the direction i want it to go!! (:
baking for vday w jy and maybe sasha! (: yay.
okay.. i will go and sleep so i can grow more! (: haha kidding. no i'm actually praying i'll stop growing. PRAY for me! i NEVER NEVER EVER wanna reach 1.8m!! pray i'll shrink to AT LEAST 1.75. 3cm. worthy ambition, no?
God bless!
i know You'll always be there. the symbolism of everything thats been happening is actually quite startling.
thank You for forgiving me, i hope she will too. SO insensitive.
Friday, February 02, 2007
2:55 PM
tired.tired.tired.
stressed.stressed.stressed.
what are we coming to?
drained, tired and hurting.